A list of expectations and assumptions I hate.
I hate expectations.
Here are a list of assumptions about me as a transracial adoptee and expectations from the world that are driving me up a fucking wall. Here's an idea: Dear World, Shut up. I want it quiet for one bloody second.
1. I must desire to learn Mandarin.
2. I must desire to return to China and/or find my birthfamily.
3. I must not be very connected to any Asian/Chinese culture. I must not identify as Chinese. I must identify as white.
4. I must lack a connection to other Chinese adoptees/grown up isolated or in an all-white environment.
5. My parents must not want me to find my birthfamily.
6. I must be GRAPPLING with my identity, racial or otherwise.
7. I must be angry with my birthfamily.
8. I must be angry with my adoptive family.
9. I must be super lucky and grateful for being a wretched orphan who was saved by big-hearted people.
10. I must be super angry and resentful to be stolen from my culture and raised by--gasp--white people.
11. My parents must be racist or have "white savior-itus"
12. I must have been "raised" Asian since I fit the "stereotype"
13. I must be into white guys.
14. I must want to adopt as well.
15. I must really want to "give back" and volunteer at my orphanage.
16. I must have a super positive and sacred connection to the other girls at my orphanage.
17. I'm not a "true" Asian and can't intelligently comment on any racial topics that pertains to the Asian diaspora because I'm not a "real" Asian.
18. I must believe that my adoptive parents aren't my "real" parents.
19. I must believe that "blood doesn't make a family" and therefore must de-emphasize the role of my birthparents in my heart and life.
20. I was abandoned as a baby because I was a girl.
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